Today i feel....a lot of things

Everyone goes through all kinds of phases we know of some or the other time...maturity,immaturity,studying,studying your ass off,playing, enjoying life,making something out of ur life...ruining your life completely

I,in the past 2 years, was partly in being a being very unsatisfied with my life and partly in trying to make my stay here meaningful.
I gave all I had. Balanced my life between the people I truly love and my studies. True,I still didn't give it my best...but hey,there is only so much a person can do while cribbing about the miserable life I have been living ( the why part of my life being miserable here will be covered some other day when this city itself pisses me off :p )

So..about epic phase past one year... I feel I did a lot
Though didn't give it my best .. bit yes.. I did
2 internships,2 certificate courses, hr head for BM - BHUMI organization...handled a boyfrnd ( not that he made it very difficult)
Gave my family a lot of time... Went to college regularly (considering my first year was a total disaster :'D)

And finally my department head told me my hard work was going to pay off...I was going to graduate with a UG degree and a DIPLOMA...
Yup, there were crackers bursting, beautiful clouds flying around, dancing... And all of those happy happy things in my head...all I had to do was do just one other certificate course
My last sem in college and I was ready for it
For the last time in this city, carry on with that 'phase'..I was motivated
And huh...BALLS TO IT ALL
Last sem and my college let me down...Again.. They canceled the only course I had not yet taken up
Ha... I am no more motivated :)
And the worst part,the one person I want to share it with most...seems to damn busy to care
Cheers ...!!!

Keyword : #ranting #pissedoff #sad # frustrated,